A Night to Remeber

Well hi to you all. I have completed another of the many things I wish to enjoy in my "new" life ..I got to see an amazing performance from the troupe of Cirque Du Soleil!!! I remember watching all the taped performances on the Bravo network(I think that was the channel) when I was a little girl and I thought I would never get to see them : but I did!!! They came to Rochester New York!! Which is a shock in and of itself. Nothing comes to us...we are a waste land. AND yes I spent WAY too much on the tickets and souvenirs...but I look at it like this...2 months ago I didn't know if i was gonna live or die right? So spending a little on myself is more than okay :)

AND I loved every minute of it

ALLLLEEEEGGGRRIIAAA

A whole New Day

Howdy ya'll....
I hope you are all doing fabulous and great. What has gone on lately..hmm..well lets see, I'm still single however that no longer bothers me as much as it used to. I feel the Lord has a plan for all of us. I don't mean to sound like one of those truly obnoxious preachy persons, however I can't help but acknowledge His presence throughout my ordeal.
~What has also come to my knowledge is that I received more well wishes and support from complete strangers than I thought was possible and the people I should have gotten the most from I did not. SO I know now who my "true" friends are and who is not.
~ I also have a brand new outlook on life..gone is the MaryBeth who would let people walk over her and not say anything..gone is the woman who would be so kind to people who turn around and stab me in the back . Those days are truly over, I'm still warm and kind but now more choosy.
~ I also got a new look physically I have lost a total of 35lbs since my journey started months ago, I feel so much more energized and positive. Life is to short to harm ones self for a good time , whether it be from too much food, alcohol or even worse smoking or drugs. And once again I'm not saying i don't like a good bag of Frito's and a glass of wine now and then..lol..

~Today is a new Day :)
Come join me

great news

hi to you all
great news! no cancer yaaayyyyyy

Surgery Over

hi all

i missed you. i have had my surgery its been 2 weeks.in case you don't remember i had a large tumor on my liver the surgeons had to remove 50% of my liver and they also removed the gall bladder because it was in the way. i was in the hospital for about 5 days. I'm recovering quite well....i have a new lease on life. I'm done worrying about the little things and even some of the big things...I'm just so happy to be home and out of that hospital. there are noises of people screaming that i cannot get out of my mind. and my roommate was a trip and a half. her dam cell phone rang ALL night in loud mode...dude show some respect and this was an older lady too not some young chick like me , i had my cell on low ring to be classy...lol..i walked to the end of the block today and i even designed a new purse. good times.....i still cant eat allot hurts to much when the stomach stretches out . i have a Huge incision on my belly and about 26 staples that need to be removed. its been so surreal and i still cannot believe this happened to me . i love life so much its not even funny. and i have such an amazing group of family and friends that have made this traumatic moment all the more bearable. i still do not know if it is cancer yet. and i don't care. ....well i do but i love how I'm feeling right now and I'm not gonna stop living life like this regardless if it is.

thanks god and all of you

Surgery Date

hi to you all. i will not be writing for some time due to my surgery on july 30th if you would like updates follow me on Facebook . God bless u all

Here comes the Sun

Well after what seemed to be months of never ending bad news. First my dads family business of more than 50 years closed unexpectedly in March, then my ongoing health concerns. There is finally a moment to be happy. My dad finally got hired, its not a great job..but its a job. not gonna lie things were tight for a while ....and unemployment doesnt pay nearly what they should.so i look to the skies with gratefulness. i thank him for the small things: my gardens, a snow cone on a hot day, a smile, warm sun. no matter what the lord throws us...there is always a raft floating around for us...just got to be patient and find it

renewed hope

hi to everyone
well after a depressing week , i am back in the mood that all good things come to those who wait. life is a series of ups and downs. without the downs..how can we appreciate the ups right?

i also learned that love takes more than a few kind statements and compliments. it takes time and understanding of one anothers opinions and you NEED to have some things in common...especially when it comes to morals.

i am hopeful once again that i will find my soul mate....I'm just not focusing on that one goal...life is too short ..if it happens ..it happens...and i will know it is the right guy :=)