Hooked on a feeling

Well after so many horrible first dates, blind dates and failed relationships . I think I have found a man I really like and that likes me. I haven't felt this way in a really long time. Sometimes its a little scary and overwhelming but I am enjoying it. It's been so long since I've been interested in a "good nice guy " , it seemed for a while I was attracted to the drama and craziness of dating a "bad boy " but I wanted and deserved more than being someones second choice or backup. I forgot what it was like to have someone more interested in me , then just when he was " in the mood" or "bored" I know that sounds horrible , if any of my friends treated me like the way some of these guys treated me I would have tossed them to the curb long ago...BUT because as women we are so afraid to be alone we cling on to any attention even if its unhealthy.

~ How nice it is to get little wake up messages, have nick names , hour long phone calls. And going out with each other just to look into each others eyes and be happy.

~ Also business is expanding and to have someone to celebrate with and be happy for me , instead of be jealous is truly remarkable .

renewed hope

hi to everyone
well after a depressing week , i am back in the mood that all good things come to those who wait. life is a series of ups and downs. without the downs..how can we appreciate the ups right?

i also learned that love takes more than a few kind statements and compliments. it takes time and understanding of one anothers opinions and you NEED to have some things in common...especially when it comes to morals.

i am hopeful once again that i will find my soul mate....I'm just not focusing on that one goal...life is too short ..if it happens ..it happens...and i will know it is the right guy :=)

is done

yeah im done looking for mr. right..he isn't out there....

marriage

hello everybody
well it seems i am the last one from the old gang to NOT be married. NOW that's not a bad thing , it seems marriage never lasts anyways. Someone falls "out" of love with the other person...i mean is it humanly possible or probable to remain in love and happy with the same person year after year.....day after day?

seems a lot of married people cheat on their spouses too. why i found out a family friend was being cheated on by his wife of 30 years. she was having an affair with her boss for 8 years!!! Also i am always getting approached by married men...like i want to ruin someones family.....i am not that type of girl.

YET the hopeless romantic in me wants the faery tale wedding....but the real thing we should all strive for is a happy long term marriage....and i also desire that. the knowledge of having someone by your side, someone to take you to the doctor , to be there to hear bad news with you. to let you cry on their shoulder......to go to parties with you ..to have him look at you and say " yeah shes with me"....sigh.....o well.....i do know this one thing:

i would rather be alone and single...then to marry the wrong man to just have a wedding. if you have to question it ..its not cold feet....it means you should not do it.

Holidays Are the Worst

Happy 4th of July

Well today was a Happy Independence Day for me , until the fireworks came. Its always that time i get a little sad. For i am for the most part a single woman. I don't have someone to hold hands with and kiss at the end of the showcase of lights. Grant it i have a terrific family and a close knit group of friends and yes i believe there is a man that cares for me . BUT he is not here , he is there ..far far away. Will we ever make it work? I doubt he is that serious about me . i feel i am just a passing fancy have the time. ANYWAYS...back to what i was saying...any other singleton knows that most of the times we love being single , then we have a moment of envy and jealousy. For me its always around New Year's Eve for obvious reasons, Valentine's day, and Fourth of July.

Tonite i sat in my chair and watched the fireworks with my dad and i watched cute little families walk by holding hands and i kept thinking " im going to die alone and miserable"...And with the huge tumor growing inside me ..probably quite soon.

THEN one couple with 2 kids settled behind us and i heard the dad and the mom talking to the kids and showing them the purdy lights. THEN all of a sudden they started fighting because he just got a text message from some other girl....so i was glad i was single at that moment. Who knows what really goes on in these "cute Familys" ....do they really love eachother? ...Does " happily ever after " even exist....or so we all just settle for what we can get?

We all deserve to be loved wholy and fully. Especially if your married or have kids with the man or woman, so yeah id rather stay single until i know the guy loves me for me....hell id rather spend a day lonely then a life time of regrets :D

Is anything Private anymore

i cannot begin to tell you how sick i am of seeing peoples private areas on the Facebook, myspace and even on this blogger thing. Is anything considered inappropriate anymore? i mean i hate normal pics of myself...let alone having the nerve to post nude ones for everyone and anyone to come and look at ...lol... the only thing i can say it makes me thankful that i have morals and standards when others don't. Sure i flirt online and in person...but come on now...you're asking for trouble when you go and do that. Some people have called me a prude..well id rather be a normal chick that hangs out with you ..then to be the chick to let it all "hang out"
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until next time peep :)

Maybe

"Maybe means NO"

Wouldn't it be nice to get a straight answer from people? Yes or No should be an easy thing to decide. Like " Do you have kids?" The answer to that usually is quite simple. So why is it that in the dating scene people use "maybe" instead of coming right out and saying how they feel ...like " Do you want to date me ?" " Will you attend this important business event to show your support of me?"

~ In my opinion it would be refreshing if sometimes painful if the person would come right out and tell me " NO i'm not showing up because it would confuse you into thinking i want a relationship with you, and it's obvious i don't . " ...yeah that would hurt BUT i'd know where i'd stand at least INSTEAD i stood around all day HOPING to see a guy i once liked and am NOT over ...to magically show up to a sale i had going on today. Every man i saw with a goatee or backwards baseball hat i'd hope and pray that he was "HIM" ...for "He" said he "MAYBE" was attending .

~ My point is "Maybe " means NO

Examples

" Will you wash the dirty dishes tomorrow?....Maybe

" Will you ever be able to afford a mustang?....Maybe

"Will you ever marry a celebrity?.....Maybe

So my question to myself is will you ever get your hopes up again hoping "he'll" pop out of the blue?......MAYBE