Well today was a Hap
py Independence Day for me , until the fireworks came. Its always that time i get a little sad. For i am for the most part a single woman. I don't have someone to hold hands with and kiss at the end of the showcase of lights. Grant it i have a terrific family and a close knit group of friends and yes i believe there is a man that cares for me . BUT he is not here , he is there ..far far away. Will we ever make it work? I doubt he is that serious about me . i feel i am just a passing fancy have the time. ANYWAYS...back to what i was saying...any other singleton knows that most of the times we love being single , then we have a moment of envy and jealousy. For me its always around New Year's Eve for obvious reasons, Valentine's day, and Fourth of July.
Tonite i sat in my chair and watched the fireworks with my dad and i watched cute little families walk by holding hands and i kept thinking " im going to die alone and miserable"...And with the huge tumor growing inside me ..probably quite soon.
THEN one couple with 2 kids settled behind us and i heard the dad and the mom talking to the kids and showing them the purdy lights. THEN all of a sudden they started fighting because he just got a text message from some other girl....so i was glad i was single at that moment. Who knows what really goes on in these "cute Familys" ....do they really love eachother? ...Does " happily ever after " even exist....or so we all just settle for what we can get?
We all deserve to be loved wholy and fully. Especially if your married or have kids with the man or woman, so yeah id rather stay single until i know the guy loves me for me....hell id rather spend a day lonely then a life time of regrets :D
I get the same feeling at times, but honestly there is nothing like spending time with someone you really care about. even though we have the fair of being cheated on at times we still feel better being in a relationship that out of one. I have been single for sometime now and i can honestly say it really sucks most of the time. I am really sorry to hear about your tumor i really hope and pray that you will get it cut or do whats necessary to get rid of it. All the best.
ReplyDeleteyeah i would have to agree, relationships are the best.but us singletons put on a brave face too. Yeah i want it out too! Lol...the doctors are taking there sweet time, so im looking at it as a good thing, if it was really bad they'd rush me in right away. Thanks for the prayers.
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